Hey kids, so I'm sure at least a few of you are wondering why I deactivated my Facebook tonight. Well, I hate admitting this, but I learned something about myself this week. It's something I don't like and I want to change, and getting rid of distractions like Facebook is a step toward that. See, I never realized it before, but I'm a selfish person. Not intentionally selfish - and if you asked me, I would have never said that I'm the kind of person who's only concerned with his own interests and well-being, and I don't think the question "how does this benefit me?" has ever been a deciding factor in whether or not I did something for someone. But,the truth of the matter is that I have a thoughtless streak in me, a lot of the time I don't consider the feelings of the people around me, and that thoughtless streak has hurt people I care about and even in some cases driven them away from me completely. Not intending to be selfish is no excuse I want this to change.
The truth is it wasn't a decision I made lightly, but as many of you know, I spent quite a bit of time posting on Facebook, usually trying to make people laugh. I figure now, if I take that time I used to spend on Facebook and do something like, oh I don't know, call or text a friend I haven't spoken to in awhile, or make a list of my friends' kids birthdays so I can finally remember to send cards and gifts like I always intended to, or do any other number of things to just be a better me.
Hopefully another side effect will be having a little more time to actually write stuff on here. And I'm sure I'll be back on Facebook at some point, but not until I'm satisfied that I've developed some better habits... habits that don't make people think I'm kind of a dick. Man in the mirror kids, man in the mirror.